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No matter how stretched I am, no matter how edgy I get (when I'm trying to control things myself), no matter how scared or fretful, or how crazy I get, when I finally remember and let it gooooooo! I'm OK again.
I've talked before about how silly I am to tend to do things the hard way (not listening) and to try it my way first - goodness! will I ever get it right? And it always ends up the same way, knocking myself down, letting God have it and lift me up again. I ask over and over again "Lord, why do you put up with me". That question use to end with me crying and feeling guilty and unanswered.
But I have come a long way in my "Tiny Steps" that God has laied before me, I still stumble and fall, He still reaches down with His loving hand and raises me up again but now, when I ask that question it's usually with a ridiculous smile on my face as I feel God touch me smiling at me Himself.
Sometimes I think I hear Him say while smiling "I'm not gonna answer that again for you, you know the answer you silly girl, you are just a mere human, but you are My human", "I know when you are falling, I know when you are going to need me, I hear you before you even say my name, I just have to wait on you, and I am there". And I do know the answer, it's simply because He loves me, I am His and like any child we care for ourselves, no matter what they do, we still hold that love in our hearts.
I don't deserve any of that, I didn't earn it, I don't have a right to it - He gave it to me freely because He keeps His promises, He is the Almighty God, the Father of our Savior, the Alpha and Omega.
Believe me if ever there was proof, of God loving the undeserving I AM THAT PROOF. I can say that with a huge smile on my face because of the love we share, and the peace only He brings to my heart and because He puts up with me.
"I love you Lord"