Monday, September 28, 2009

Thank You

I've been in quite a slump and have been struggling for weeks to find my way out of it.

I have prayed and been blessed by prayers from others and thank you so much.

I'm not sure why I feel like I do or if there is a reason, but I have felt very clouded and low. A place I don't like to be. The Lord loves me and offers me a way out I am searching as I pray and struggle each day to feel differently.

Sometimes talking to someone else helps and sometimes it takes solitude, just me and my Lord one-on-one. My days are getting better and I am feeling more free from the darkness and am having fewer days that feel so bleak.

In this time of solitude I have prayed and thought through a number of things. I have given the future of my grandson up from worry and fear and have faced the fact that he belongs to God not me and I can do nothing to help him but pray. I am at peace with that decision that God has made clear to me.

I have opened myself up to God's love and am feeling a true love for others I know. A love that God wants me to have. Not a responsibility kind of love but a free love. They too, (my neighbors and loved ones) are His, not mine and I am designed to offer them a kind and caring love without requirements or judgements. I knew that but I don't always do it, and God is telling me and showing me the difference. I can feel it in my heart.

I'm pretty stubborn and God usually has to get me 'alone' to get through to me, why He puts up with me is a true, true example of His kind of love. His complete and unconditional love.

Thank You so much Father for all that You are. Thank You for designing me, creating me and yes, putting up with me. Just "Thank You".

He is always the Light at the end of the dark tunnel, always.


  1. So sorry you have been feeling down. I know what's it's like to be there, I've visited many times. My favorite saying when I'm feeling my lowest is "Let go and let God" I keep reiminding myself to do that and eventually the dark clouds pass.

  2. His amazing, indescribable, inconceivable, unending, unconditional love!

    Isn't it wonderful that His love doesn't depend on our emotions? Only on His word.

    I love you, too, sis.


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