I am reading through Psalm and trying to understand David's state of heart, not just what I have been taught about the words but I want to feel him as he let God create this book through him.
In reading ch's 1-9, I see a new word I have never seen before Higgaion. So I do what I do, and went for the Bible dictionary/Concordance first thing. I checked and that one place in the Bible, that one scripture, that one time is the only time the word Higgaion was used in The Word.
I am surprised to find that it means, meditation with a musical softness. This word Higgaion is followed by the word Selah. I have researched Selah before to find that it means, a musical pause.
The LORD is known by the judgment which he executeth: the wicked is snared in the work of his own hands. Higgaion. Selah.
And like a ton of bricks hit me on the head, I realized that David's writings are not just poetry but they are song (I know, you probably already knew that!). He sang his prayers to God, I thought how beautiful that must have been and how open David's heart would have been to God to Glorify Him with song no matter what his voice may have been. No wonder God loved David so much, I think God enjoyed David.
He enjoyed the openness of his heart with his prayers in song, he enjoyed that David needed Him every minute of the day, and needed God as his close personal friend - That's the way it's suppose to be with us, and David must be the ultimate example of that.
Even though his life was a mess and he made mistakes, he never stopped needing God and crying out to Him. I imagine how absolutely safe David must have felt in those moments with God, the peace God gave him.
I have written before how much I love to sing and how sad it was to me for years that I did not inherit a wonderful singing voice. I got over it, I realized that there are other tasks for me but I still wish I could belt out one with lyric and tune that Glorified God. I'm just realizing today that I can, can't I. I can sing to God if I want, any time I want and I think He will love my crackling, off key voice. I think He is smiling right now at my epiphany and how long it took me to get here.
Why Lord do you put up with me? I know, I know!