The last couple of days have not been so great and I really didn't feel like even writing (as you can see I am late). So I started praying and asked my Father once again, to take this journey with me. You be the pilot Father and I will just be along for the ride.
I don't want to be whiny today I want to be You Lord. OK He said, just turn this baby on and let's get started - Your words Lord, Your words.
As I began to think about the last few days every time I had a whiny thought my Father said "ahem!" You know a friendly clearing the throat reminder,
Thanks lord that the holiday was just terrific, fantastic, wonderful, blessed and sweet. "You're welcome child"
The last couple of day have been really tough emotionally "yes but they weren't emotionally void where they?" Good point Lord
I have been used and hurt "yes but I protected you and kept you safe didn't I" yes Lord
This child is so difficult and I don't know if I can do it. "I don't send you any task you can't handle if you let me guide you" that is so true Lord
I have lost my temper, I regret some things I have said Lord, I fell all the way down "small stuff kiddo was I not there and didn't I pick you back up and aren't you sitting here talking to me right now" yes Lord You surely did.
I want to make the right decisions here about this child, I feel so inadequate Father, "you are, but I'm not" LISTEN to Me, just be quiet and listen. I will all day today, I will just be quiet.
I'm tired Lord, It doesn't feel like I'm getting anywhere here, like I'm butting my head against a wall! "You are getting somewhere, it may be the tiniest fraction of an inch that you can't measure but I can". You are so good to me Lord
OK I am ready to face this day Father with You beside me, please send the Holy Spirit to stay right here with me today and gently touch my heart. I love you Jesus and today is Your day not mine, make it what You would have it be, use me. Amen